In this assignment I will take you on a brief explanation of the essence of my research\topics. I want to create feeling of shadow of a doubt (in hebrew - צֵל שֶׁל סָפֵק).. a strange lack of something that is there.
At first glance, if someone comes to ask what I'm researching, I'll tell him as half rumor: "the doors knocks, a taxidermy cat...huh, and I also build nonlinear audio systems, I build a speaker if you're aiming it at the wall ... it sounds As if the sound come from the wall! " Then I will stop telling, because I feel everything as been said . He will look at me with a doubt, such doubt.
you are returning from a long trip back to your room, to the most familiar space. when you first enter the room the physical dimension feels suddenly foreign, the space that is burned deepest in the place cells in the brain becomes curved, not bigger not smaller just different...You place your bag on the side of the space, and sit down where the physical shape of your body has been assimilated into a foreign object. before everything is enough to return to normal dimension you look to the other end. A place you have never seen....a hidden layer of blue under your peeling wall. you start to wonder whats under the blue...scratching the wall for a few hours, discovering all colors of light, history itself And layers of physical knowledge.
A hole is created in the wall, hole that leads to the neighbors' apartment, to a world that does not belong to you at all.
I have to say - Slowly, some meaning comes to all of this...some unifying feelings, causality, intention.. a shadow of a doubt. I love the intermediate experience, the restlessness in it, what shakes you and leaves you awake, the experience of curiosity. As something clear it becomes full, solid, dead.
Shadow of a doubt -(usually) we do not allow ourselves to be in that state, it creates instability, fear. We are looking for full understanding, clarity of knowledge... leaving no place for a new experimental look.
in my research I will try to brake down the fundamentals of shadow of doubt in order to addres DNA of information. Shadow of doubt means a state where the senses are not aware but the mind digests and moves. Shadow of doubt is a phenomenon that happens between the lines, it is directed behind the full system of interpretation, into a more immature and thirsty place.
Shadow: It is the inevitable echo of the possibility of seeing, it is the concealment and lack from the achievable, it is the absent part created from the essence of existence. A shadow is a poor representation of reality.
Doubt: is a momentary curiosity for not knowing, is the attempt to understand, it the middle ground between knowing and not knowing, it is fundamental for evolution.
shadow of doubt Is uncertainty, it's curiosity, it's a fine line between thought and delusion. Shadow of doubt is a state that affects all aspects of life. It evolves to the point of creating a consciousness for the small details, hypnosis, the endless possibilities. A shadow of doubt allows a critical perspective on the foundations of the world, allows to pull off the glasses of mathematics and complete forms.
I intend to research this by evoking the state using systems that I am developing. My hypothesize is that missing part(failures of presence) creates a loophole (lacuna) allowing completion(failures of absence) from what exists within. opportunity for the different.
option for RQ will be:
Is it possible to cause one to doubt a familiar system by creating a shadow of a doubt?
"Freud long ago shown that the forces that govern our psyche can be conceived of as failures of presence — is not the unconscious itself not just such a failure of presence? — and failures of absence (the various drives or compulsions that intercede where our free will should be)" - The Weird and the Eerie Repeater (2017)p.64-p.128
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related ideas/key words/research subjects:
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Defamiliarization
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Eerie
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Uncanny
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Taxidermy
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Phantom limb
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Schrödinger's cat
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Art as a taxidermy
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Sound as an abstract emotional connotation
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Knocking on the door
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Ultra Sonic Speaker as a way to cast a shadow doubt of the familiar